Sunday, May 6, 2012
For the past few weeks I was seeing this guy (who we'll call Hap). Hap was pretty much HEAD OVER HEELS for me. And it was weird. He's quite a bit younger than me, but he didn't care. We'd stay up REALLY late (like 3 am late) talking to each other. We even went on a date (which was pretty fun). I thought I really liked this kid.
Later on I discovered a few things. I realized something-Hap always talked about how his thoughts were always filled with me, but my thoughts were NEVER on him. Whenever I was around him I had fun, but I was never quite comfortable enough to share all the skeletons I had in my closet with him-so I never did. I also discovered that he's pretty immature when he wasn't around me-and I didn't like that.
Then Hap started acting odd-he stopped talking to me just in general. And, in all honesty, it didn't bother me. I realized that I didn't really like him at all-I just liked the attention he gave me. And the fact that it didn't bother me actually SHOWED me that I didn't like him. When you like a guy and he stops talking to you-it should bother you. But it didn't.
I came to the conclusion that I needed to end things with Hap. So I told him, "Whatever this was that we had, I think I'm done with it." And he never got back to me. That showed me that he was pretty immature.
I'm not making this post to bash him at all! This post is to show something that I've discovered about myself- I'm ready for an adult relationship. I mean, I'm going to be an adult in 20 days. I was dumbing myself down for him, which wasn't okay. This relationship-thing (I don't know what to call it) showed me that it's my time to grow up. Teenage relationships were never really my thing anyway. I'm in it for the long run.
All in all, I'd like to thank Hap for helping me realize this about myself. It's time for Emily to become an adult!