Sunday, November 25, 2012

Shortie post

In our classes at AMDA our teachers always say, "TURN ON YOUR LIGHTS!". And by lights, they mean your performance lights to where you light up a room with your talent.

Well I stumbled upon this verse today

Let your light so shine that others see your good works and glorify your father in Heaven.
Matthew 5:16

Lights apply in every part of my life now. I need to shine for Jesus and not just myself.


That's all for today.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Not About Me

Once again, I really want to post continuations as to how I got to NYC story blogs, but more things keep happening to me that I need to post about instead.

This past Friday, my boyfriend and I decided to take a break from our relationship. We needed to grow in ways that we couldn't grow if we were dating. I'm not going to go into how he's changing because while he's told me about it, it's not my business to share it with the world. Sorry :)

It's only been five days, and I've learned more about myself and what I need to do than I have in the entire month that I've been in NYC. On Sunday at Hillsong Church our pastor talked about the dash on our tombstones. He said that he wants his dash to be about OTHERS. He said that numbers DO matter in a church because every person is a number. It doesn't matter how high or low that number is, but the numbers matter. He wants his legacy to be known as a man for others.

Then on Tuesday I joined a small group from Hillsong NYC and we continued conversation about our legacies. Back at home I tried my hardest to be about others. I talked to everyone in school, I lead a middle school small group, I did all I thought I could at the time. But when I got here to NYC, I thought about, "Now what about me?" and I became so focused on what God wanted me to do for me. From Friday until Sunday afternoon, I though my boyfriend and I's break was about ME finding ME.

But it's not.

It's not about me.

It's about others.

My legacy needs to be about others. While I don't know HOW exactly God wants me for others, I at least now know that He does want me for them.

"But the Lord is in His Holy Temple; the Lord still rules from heaven. He watches everyone closely; examining every person on Earth." Psalm 11:4

Number do matter. I had forgotten.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Admitting I'm Wrong

I wanted to continue on with my NYC story blogging, but today I just need to blog about what happened to me in my acting class.

On Monday we showed our teacher the scenes that we were assigned and over the past two days, we've workshoped them. However, when my scene partner and I went up and did our scene, our teacher looked at us an said, "How long did you rehearse since Monday." I decided to be honest with him and said, "We didn't." he told us to sit down.

When we sat down he told us we should be disappointed in ourselves. If we really wanted to be a part of this business we needed to commit and rehearse. We'd learned so much in the past few days and yet my partner and I did nothing to adjust our scene. He told us that we failed for the day. He said, "It is better to have failed and gotten lost, than to fail because you did nothing." I got my first college F.

When he was done talking, in front of the whole class I said to him, "Thank you, really needed that smack in the face." (and I mean I said it in an "I appreciate you" way) And with that he pointed at me, looked at the class, and said "That is exactly how you are supposed to respond in this business. That is how you respond to your directors, your producers, everyone. That is the attitude you all need to have. Congratulations, you're going to make it in this business. You don't fail for the day."

I'm not making this post as a "Look at what I did!" post. We all need to admit we're wrong. Because nine times out of ten, we are. I've always put a lot of work into the time that I'm actually IN school, but as soon as I'm home, I'm super lazy. It's been a habit of mine for years now and my parents have told me numerous times I need to stop it. That I could be so much better if I just put the effort in OUTSIDE of school. I got A's and B's in high school, but I could've gotten straight A's had I put in that effort. Today, my teacher told me something my parent's had said to me a million times before and it finally sunk in, and I appreciated it.

My dad always taught me to not talk back and admit when I'm wrong. Dad's life lessons always pay off and I never notice. Today I noticed. I admitted I was wrong and it did so much and I learned so much. Listen to your parents, they know what they're talking about